Marriage in the right key

Sadly, over the past 2 weeks, 3 precious women and a good man have lost their spouses of 30+ years. At moments like this, I always wonder how I will handle it, if I lose Bradley first. I know it's not anyone's favorite topic, but it's on my mind right now. My heart hurts for all of them, and I pray for God's comfort as they grieve. Bradley and I are so grateful for the beautiful examples of perseverance and commitment given by married couples who are dedicated to giving their everything to their partner. As we're all imperfect people, I know perfect marriages don't exist, but when both people are loyal and devoted, a blissful union is attainable. For every faithful marriage, I want to say thank you. All of you loving husbands and respectful wives are an inspiration to me and others. Again, thank you.

Speaking of loving husbands, Bradley, and I had the blessing of spending some time together in San Antonio last week, during the annual TMEA convention. I am thankful for every minute we were hand in hand, as well as the moments of solitude when he was in a session. Between the Springhill Suites gym, free breakfast, and stylish surroundings, I was as happy as a Lark. I was able to exercise, eat, read, and work in ease and comfort, not to mention that the weather was gorgeous! In between sessions, Bradley and I would meet up to visit over a meal. It was pretty fascinating to watch the crowd at the convention. So many different people, but all of them had something in common: music. It made me question my self-proclaimed nerdiness. They have conventions for almost everything you can think of: music, comic books, gaming, technology, etc.  And yet, I couldn't think of anything I'd be interested in enough to go to a convention. Bradley decided I'd go to either a "writer's" convention or a "loner's" convention, but then realized both groups would rather remain in solitude. So, although he tried to comfort me, I am concerned I may not be as much of a nerd as I've always claimed. Surely I am though, between my love of logic puzzles and research for fun... oh, and there's Settlers of Catan.  That gives me some nerd points, right? If you don't know what I'm talking about, I am sorry because you are sorely deprived of vital resources. If you do know the game, then you just laughed at my joke. Thanks.

Back to the convention.

On Friday I had the privilege of joining Bradley in the exhibit hall, and I felt as though I'd walked into another world. So many instruments were being played, all well, but all different tunes; teachers, in small groups, were laughing at corny music jokes; students were enjoying their temporary freedom from rehearsal; and there were rows upon rows of books, full of music education on all levels. We saw a treble cleft and flowing staff printed onto a gaudy gold bag {the type of gold Blanche from "Golden Girls" would wear}, and Bradley pretended to be interested in it for purchase. I laughed, and then commented that his Memaw would have bought it. Simultaneously, we said, "and every time someone would have commented on it, she would have proudly told them, 'well my grandson teaches music...'" I'm delighted that I had the honor of knowing his Memaw before the two of us were even an item. She was another precious widow whom I admire. Another booth we stumbled upon had the tiniest string instruments I've ever seen - photo op!

If your 3 year old decides to play the cello, we

found the perfect one for them. So cute!

Bradley playing the world's smallest violin. Yes, it is real.

If you've heard of San Antonio, you're most likely familiar with the River Walk. This brilliant addition to the city has allowed a busy, crowded area to have a peaceful atmosphere. Our first meal was on the river at the Iron Catcus, and it did not disappoint. Delicious, beautiful, and tranquil. Our steak and queso appetizer was a wonderful welcome, followed by scrumptious shrimp taquitos {home made style, not store bought}, and then we finished with Mexican donuts... yes, that's right, I said M-E-X-I-C-A-N  D-O-N-U-T-S! They were, well, better than they look, and they looked amazing.

 Bradley and I enjoying our queso

 Warming myself while waiting for dessert

Iron Cactus' Mexican donuts - OMTB {oh my taste buds!}

That evening we had planned to have dinner at Boudro's, but as Bradley had a 7 o'clock session approaching, the wait was too long. So, we settled for The Original. It's a decent tex-mex restaurant, and my only disappointment was that I had been looking forward to cajun. It had a fun atmosphere, with Mariachi musicians wondering through. They played a fun song for us, while we enjoyed our fajitas and a yummy virgin mango margarita. {try saying that five times, fast}

Friday's lunch was suggested by Eric, Bradley's co-worker and assistant director, and Paesano's did not disappoint. The location was magnificent. It's funny how construction sounds seem almost musical on the river walk. The way it echoes removes all the irritants, and it becomes a somewhat soothing rhythm. Hmm... I may not be a nerdy musician, but I can sound like one. ;o) The bread, served like an appetizer, was the perfect amount of grain and fluffiness, without compromising flavor. We enjoyed cheese tortellini with spinach, pine nuts, and a creamy pesto sauce - yum! I think I would have preferred it with some grilled shrimp though. The flavor was delicious, but it needed a little more bite to it. Then Bradley's convention badge entitled us to a free dessert > 3 separate scoops of vanilla ice cream rolled in a delectable concoction of cookie crumbs, chocolate bits, and almonds.

Paesano's sign - just lovely!

 View from our table, looking up of course.

 Bradley and Eric having "creative differences."

{Don't worry, they're only posing for fun.}

Aww, they've decided to get along, regardless of

which composer they believe is the best.

All in all, we had a wonderful mini-adventure, and I'm looking forward to the next one. Besides, that's what marriage is, right? A series of adventures, some good, some bad, and all of them with your best friend. Bradley, every adventure with you has been a blessing, and I am excited to see what's ahead. Here's wishing us a bon voyage!

Let it Snow...

I am blessed enough to be sitting in a fairly warm establishment called Panera Bread. I just finished a delicious bowl of mac and cheese, while enjoying the beautiful snowfall outside. Although driving through snow in Texas is not fun, I am still captivated by the peace snow brings to my soul. Watching it fall is similar to watching a fire burn. It's something you may have seen hundreds or even thousands of times, but you're still fascinated, unable to look away. You stare into the wonderful creation before your eyes, striving to focus on a single flake or flame, only to relent, and then mentally drift off with the many thoughts dancing in your head. I find it difficult to stress when I gaze into the cold wonder. As a former Alaskan, the snow is something sentimental for me. The crunch under your boots; the misty gray sky; the innate desire to wrap up and huddle near the fire. Snow is an excuse to behave like a child; to laugh while throwing snowballs or making snowmen; to crave hot chocolate and homemade macaroni and cheese; and to hope for a day off from school, schedules, and stress. Again, snow is peace. I caught a single snowflake on my finger this morning, and was amazed at the incredible detail. Before it quickly melted, I was able to see the tiny ice crystals. The individual formation, unique from every other snowflake falling around me, was nothing less than amazing. God is awesome in His attention to detail with even some of the smallest of His creation. As I waited for my food to be served, I browsed Pinterest for inspiration. A few years ago I would have mentally punished myself for indulging in such a selfish event, but not now. It's snowing, and I am blessed. This past Monday, I partook in a private bible study with some very dear friends. Some of these ladies and I have studied together for over 5 years, and they've grown very precious to me. I have learned so much about God's word, His desire for me, and His obvious love for me, in the blessing of every sister with whom I have studied. Together, we have shared heartaches, struggles, confessions, encouragement, scripture, and peace. These sweet friends helped me to see that "punishing" myself for doing things I enjoy is, well, for lack of a better term, silly. This idea may seem ridiculous to you, but in another life, I'm pretty sure I was one of those monks who beat themselves for simply being alive. {No, I don't believe in reincarnation.} I am simply trying to demonstrate that allowing pleasure without guilt has been a struggle for me. Watching a show was only acceptable if I was sick or doing laundry. I love reading, but until recently, have withheld that pleasure because I couldn't justify the time it took away from household chores. However, I will admit that staring at flames or snow has always been allowed.
I don't know, I'm weird. That's my only explanation for it all.
Thanks to my precious friends, I have been enjoying Pinterest while watching the snow, guilt free. As I searched the plethora of images, it dawned on me that I've actually been more productive since I started allowing myself to relish in little delights like this. I fancy myself a pretty logical thinker, but this "duh" moment is causing me to question my logistic intelligence. I've always understood the saying, "take time to fill your own pitcher, or you'll have nothing left to give to your loved ones", but only recently have I actually been able to apply it to my life. As I contemplate my move to Cambodia, the snow grows even dearer to me. If you are unaware, my understanding is that it doesn't snow in Cambodia. It swelters. It steams. It rains. But, it doesn't snow. So, this may be my last chance to experience winter weather for a few years, and I want to enjoy every minute. Some may be ready for the cold weather to hibernate, and others may simply see snow as a hiccup in the busy work week. But I welcome the cold fluff and the peace it brings to my soul. So, I'll allow the cold to warm my heart, and until spring tucks winter away, I'll continue to plead, "let it snow!"